Blushing Beauty

I've only ever owned two blushes: 

1. the NARS multiple stick in G-Spot, but I mostly used this for my lips

2. The Balm Instain in Pinstripe (which is absolutely gorgeous)

When the Sephora VIB Sale rolled around this November, I decided to splurge in a few high end blushes. 

When I saw everyone raving about the Becca shimmering skin pressed perfecter in Blushed Copper, I was initially wowed and then a bit skeptical. The color looked freaking gorgeous but also super intense, and I couldn't tell if that was good or bad. I also just couldn't decide whether or not blushes were for me, but I definitely wanted to experiment. After all, that's how I got into eyeshadows, mascara, and pretty much anything and everything makeup related. Being a lazy bum who doesn't leave her dorm, I googled swatches instead of actually going to a Sephora and checking out the product myself, like a normal person. 

All in all, the packaging is to die for, and the color is undoubtedly gorgeous, but how would it look on my face? There was only one way to find out: by purchasing it. 

Now, this product is a pretty penny. (heheh get it?) Really though. Retailing at $38, das espensive. But, it was limited edition, and I rationed that if anything, I'd just return it. (even though I knew I probably wouldn't.) 

SO: Was it worth it? I'll be real; probably not. But that's taking into consideration that I'm a broke college student and not a grown up or a make up artist or anything like that (although I'd love to be). All that aside, this is a gorgeous product. However, depending on your skin tone, it may be a bit hard for you to use as a blush. It's SUPER pigmented, which is great, but that also means you've got to be careful when applying it. Also, when I apply it to my cheeks, it becomes a little more orange and a little less "copper," which kind of sucks. This product would be absolutely gorgeous on dark skin tones, and I'm excited to experiment with this as a blush, and maybe also as an eyeshadow and bronzer even. Considering how light handed I will be with this, there is a LOT of product to last a super long time. 

"I'm not gay."

This is a common phrase said in today's society, especially amongst teens.
It's so common, that it's often glanced over. (Like many things.)

So, let's just take a moment and backtrack. What does this phrase even mean? As with any phrase, it depends on the context. Well, "I'm not gay" is often said in a derogatory tone in response to a stereotypically "gay" thing. That was a weird sentence. Basically, people say "I'm not gay" in response to things they think are gay.

Note that the following refers to "you" a lot. "You" isn't anyone specific, it's just someone who says "I'm not gay" in this type of situation. For example, if the following conversation hypothetically went down,
{Person 1:} "Do you like this pink sweater?"
{Person 2:} "Ew, no: I'm not gay!"
Then I'm referring my anger at person 2. (sorry if my example was stupid, I couldn't really think of anything specific, but I think you get the general idea)

My problems with this are:
1. What the hell is wrong with being gay? People try to be open minded, or at least a good number of people do, and they claim they have no problem with different types of sexuality. But when they themselves are the person who may or may not be gay, it's suddenly a huge fucking deal. People are okay with other people being gay, but not with the idea of themselves being gay. Don't get me wrong; it's absolutely fine to be confident in your heterosexuality. But there's no need to be offensive about the idea of being gay. By saying "I'm not gay!" in a negative tone, it's like saying "I'm not gay because that's gross!"
2. No one said you were gay. Literally the only person bringing sexuality into the conversation is you. Even if someone else had brought it up, what is sooo offensive with the possibility of you being gay? Anyone can be of any sexuality. There is no way of telling, which brings me to my third point:
3. You are stereotyping. It's just plain offensive and wrong. I'll just leave it at that.

• Yea, I'm probably overreacting. But I'm fine with that. I'd rather have something to scream about than have nothing to say. I'd rather make a big deal out of something than not care about anything. 

• You might say I'm reading too much into this, and honestly, you're probably right. Well, oops. Am I supposed to apologize for that?

• Why do I get offended so easily? Well, because I'm passionate. And there is nothing wrong with that. 

One weekend, 14 hours

Last weekend I went back to the city, spending a total of 14 hours traveling during the two nights and one day I had there. Insane. 

Pork belly, ribs, and fish w. tofu

I arrived to the city at about 7:30, where Antoine picked me up from the bus terminal and he headed towards Bryant Park to grab dinner. I had an insane craving for szechuan food, and since the closest restaurant to me upstate is an hour and a half drive up north, I knew I had to make the most of my trip to the city by eating as much as I could. (OK maybe I gained a pound or two, but it was so damn worth it.) 

On one day alone (the only full day I had to spend there), I spent (at least) five and a half hours on public transportation. I traveled from Queens to Flushing to Williamsburg to 14 st., to Elmhurst, to the Bronx, to Flushing, and finally back to Queens. 

My first stop was Main St. Flushing, where I bought three bottles of hair dye before jumping on a 7 train. I took the 7 to Court Sq where I got on a Church Av bound G for 3 stops. A ~15 minute walk then landed me in front of Artists and Fleas in Williamsburg. I came here for one thing, and one thing only: (or one person.) KT Ferris. I grabbed two vintage doll eye chokers from her that I've been saving up for for some time now. One with a black velvet band for Joey and one with a gorgeous gold and red band for myself. Joey and I had been thinking about getting matching blinking eye chokers for some time now, and I decided to get her hers as a belated birthday present. Unfortunately, KT herself wasn't there at the time that I went, otherwise I wanted  to have her sign a small "happy birthday" note for my girl. Hopefully Joey doesn't read this before I get the choker to her, but then at least she won't be able to give me crap about not getting her a present yet. Jk love ya Jo. :-P 

Loved how Win's Bloody Mary matched
my outfit. 

Shortly after, I went right back underground, this time taking an L to 14 st. I met my sis (winscribbles) at the Cookshop for brunch. I ordered the french toast with peaches and Winnie got a super yummy eggs/spinach dish with a side of home fries. MMMMMM delicious.

<3 fall lip colors, chokers, and colored hair. 

After eating, we did a little photoshoot near the high line.

I was recovering from a cold and had a cough attack in the middle of the shoot LOL

When we shot enough outfit photos for our liking, we went to artists and fleas in Chelsea Market so I could grab a pair of deer antlers for halloween. I also ended up leaving with a gold lace crown. 

Afterwards, I headed back towards Queens for my endocrinologist appointment (not a fan of my doctor to be honest :/). The appointment was pretty stressful, making me an emotional wreck on an hour long train ride to the Bronx. I met up with my boyfriend to go to his friend's birthday celebration. Honestly, I really didn't want to go. I practically didn't even want to see him. I just wanted to cry in a cafe by myself with a nice cup of tea. (like, I said, I was an emotional wreck). But I'm glad I went. yes, even all the way to the Bronx... Thank you for holding my hand and for loving me, babe. As the party dwindled to an end, my boo took me home via subway, but not before getting Snowdays (which has sentimental value for me, and therefore was one of the best parts of my trip). I got the black sesame, as always, with mochi, strawberries and honey. It was my first time having honey as the glaze instead of caramel or peanut butter, but oh my god, I am so glad I tried it. I'll probably be getting that from now on. My boo got one of their combos, but I forget which one. I believe it was sweet cream, captain crunch (or whatever that cereal is), peanut butter, andddddd I have no idea what that black stuff is. Lol. 

Finally, on Sunday morning, I was headed back to university. My parents drove me back because the bus ticket was insanely expensive. Plus it was a nice time to bond, even though I slept for most of the ride. Still... it felt really homey. Here's my outfit from the ride!