Hey. is anyone out there?

Hey You. 

I don't really know who I'm talking to. I haven't done this in a while, so excuse me if I'm a bit rusty. Sometimes I don't know what the point is; does anyone even read this stuff? How does this even work?

It's been a while since I've written anything at all actually. Sometimes I feel like it's been a while since I've been myself. Other times I wonder if I ever was. I used to write a lot, even if just for myself. It's easy to feel discouraged and burnt out when trying to create. But there is and always will be a part of me that is willing and able to do so. I told myself I'd start writing again, but of course I've said this before.

It's difficult to be a creative producer because self motivation is a must. I have the creativity for sure, but how can I be motivated to create when I can't even be motivated to take myself to the doctor, or even talk to my friends?

I think the answer is passion. Passion fuels motivation, even for a negative, even depressed, mentality. Or so I hope. Passion is the only thing that keeps me going, and I think that at the end of the day, it'll be the thing that saves me. 

I think I'm going to scratch the idea of fashion blogging. Of course I'll never stop having photoshoots with my tripod, trying to get my Instagram following up, and maybe even occasionally post fashion related things here. But I think above all else, I want to tell stories. Scratch that. I want to tell my story. I love to write. And I have a lot to say. So I'll write you soon. I hope. 

As if I'd call you on your cell phone

I ain't your hotline bling.  

I recently got this reversible bomber jacket from Local Heroes, and I am in love. It was definitely a splurge for me, but I am obsessed and glad I made the investment. I've been looking for a bomber for a while, particularly one with something sassy or dark/morbid on the back, and this totally fit the bill. I used to have a phone case that said "1-800-YOU-WISH" on it (from Urban Outfitters), and it was one of my favorite outfit details. Being that it was for my old case, it is now unfortunately retired. I found this jacket via my sister (@winscribbles), and I knew it'd be the perfect personality piece for me. 

Also purchased recently is the violet geometric floral dress from Black Milk Clothing. I usually preplan the pieces that I want from Black Milk, since they're so expensive, but this dress was $26 during the Cyber Monday sale, and it is SHINY AF, so I was like YASSSSSSS GIRL. It is gorgeous and the design makes it look super intricate and detailed. 

Lastly, these killer boots! They're not as recent a purchase as the other two, but how could I not talk about them? I purchased these from ASOS, and they're total showstoppers. They're badass and comfortable, which is the best combination. 

Cute ass sass

I just wanted to take a moment to recognize how freaking cute and sassy my goodies from LookHuman are, and they fit my personality so damn well. I bought the iPhone 6 tough case during the Black Friday sale. Honestly, I've never used a good case before. I usually opt for the inexpensive and cute snap cases which really don't do anything for your phone. I am soo impressed with this case and so glad I opted to pay a couple extra dollars for the tough case instead of a snap case. It makes my phone feel heavier, in a good way, and it felt like I was holding a brand new phone. PLUS THERE'S A SHARK WITH A BANNER THAT SAYS "FUCK YOUR SEXIST SHIT." How can I not love it omg. I'm honestly obsessed. 

Oh, and the cat stickers are cute too. I was surprised by how big the sticker sheet was, and I chucked one onto my laptop (it's been a few weeks and hasn't budged yet, and I don't see it doing so anytime soon.) I feel like this cat is a meme or something, but honestly I don't know where it's from. Let me know if you do. 

xox Sharkie